I actually found going to Great America theme park a bit of a guilty pleasure – I think I had been so focussed on finding meaning in my travels, and spending time trying to get my head together that the thought of some mindless fun was a bit beyond me. So I made an agreement with myself that this trip was going to have lots of FUN in it from here on in. Sure, there are things I want to do – and yet there’s a place for simply enjoying myself.
One of the real fun things was the chance to ride the coasters up front – I queued for a few minutes longer to get a front row seat on all the rides – but I did observe an interesting internal response to this – a reluctance to put myself first. It was almost as if I didn’t belong up front. Now, intellectually I know I can ride up front – but somewhere, deeper in my psyche, something was yelling ‘no, you need to hide at the back’. I’m hoping I learnt a lesson – that it’s part of my divine right to be up front. In fact, it’s part of my divine calling to be up front – visible – on stage – out in public…. And I hope I’ve finally got hold of that now!